It`s now been just over 3 months since I lost my baby son Oliver to a neural tube defect. I feel deflated and nothing seems to take this pain away.When i try to go to sleep I am now getting night terrors, i catch my breath with them and its reaaly getting me down because i am just so exhausted all the time.
I dont know how people expect me to be in a good mood right now and i am trying my best to try and not be so grumpy, but people need to understand that i am still getting over the birth, my hormones are running high and not even got my son to hold.
Only in time will i get better with this, not sure how long it takes to heal a broken heart, maybe never.
All i have done since i woke up this morning is cry, I am so fed up with crying! I can hardley talk because my throat is so sore, and i have been suffering with a high temp since yesterday also Hot and cold :(
I have just finished my house work so am gonna wrap myself up in duvet and do some colouring with my daughter.
I wish some people were more understanding of my situation, its not like I want to feel this way, I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy.